Posted by David on 19/11/2017, 6:49 pm

I've been doing gradual exposure for about 9 months now and I still struggle with having misfires because all I can do is fixate on the fact that I couldn't go and that I'm not as far into recovery as I thought I was, I also don't know what mindset I should have when doing gradual exposure because I feel if I haven't gone to a public toilet that day to pee then I'll regress and I live in this state of anxiety of feeling I HAVE to go somewhere to pee every day or I'll regress by the next day or if I've had a misfire that day I'll think about it all day and have to leave my house at 8 or 9 at night to go somewhere to desense just to stop the anxiety because I'm so paranoid about regressing as this is the third time of trying to recover and don't want to do back to what I was like before when my paruresis severe. I use the breath hold technique but only when I feel I can pee but just can't because something is locking me up enough to not let the flow start, is this bad for recovery as I'm kind of cheating? What mindset should I have when I'm doing desensing? Thanks, David

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