Posted by James on 2/6/2009, 6:28 pm

Hi. I'm 41 and my BBS (only just found out this term existed yesterday) has been getting worse gradually over the past 10 years. I don't remember it being too bad when I was in my 20s but I guess when I look back I have never been comfortable peeing with anyone else around. Once I found out about Paruresis I plucked up the courage to tell the missus and she as been really good about it. I feel that I can get my head around peeing at home now which is nice!! Work is also ok as it's probably a BBS sufferers dream toilet! three cubicles in a row, no urinals and a very noisy air con! I still hesistate for up to an hour before I pluck up the courage to go though- pathetic isn't it!! and I often have to sit down after trying for several minutes to pee standing up!! I do still go out but find I worry a lot about peeing and it's always in the back of my mind. When I have had a few drinks I relax a bit and then I am usually ok to pee, even at a urinal!! When I have to travel for a day, go to a confernce/ meeting or anything where pissing in a strange toilet is required than I am really nervous. I always use the cubicle and generally sit down to pee like a girl!! It's so annoying and hellish and it's affecting my life, please please help me!!! I don't live in a country that has any help groups so I can't attend therapy classes.

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