Posted by Bernardo on 8/11/2007, 12:49 am

Hi! I'm from Portugal and I also suffer AP. No one knows about it but so sometimes when I'm with my friends and I really have to pee I tell them I'm going to the bathroom and one of them tells he needs too.. this has happen few times but it happened... We entered the bathroom and there was only one cubicle and two urinals and there was another man peeing in the cubicle with the door open... so i tried i did a lot of force and nothing.. so i said i have so many wanting to pee that i can't do it .. its stupid but he hasn't noticed i think. My problem is that when im walking to the bathroom I automatically think about where the people are and if they are near the bathroom.. my phobia is to people come in the bathroom.. so when I'm trying to pee I look many times to the door.. when I feel difficulty I do a lot of force and my face gets really red because of the blood that arrived the head.. But the most of times when I start then there is no problem to finish it! The biggest problem is to win courage to enter a public bathroom and face the problem... I done that one time at a shopping and I went to the urinals that were free there were 2 men washing their hands. Then I became tensed and one of that men went to the urinals to pee and started looking to me the same time he was starting to pee and he saw i couldn't do it so i said what are you looking to and entered a cubicle... i was there about 10 minutes and then i went out and that man still was in the bathroom... he was really scaring.. One of my technics is to tell that im going to defecate so i have a lot of time and i don't have any pressure... When im drunk i don't have any problem to pee also.. But i think the solution is to win courage and enter a public urinal .. be calm wait until can pee.. and do that a lot of times.. of course we can pass to a lot of bad moments.. Have any one took that risk???

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