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I have narrowed down the areas that get to me when I am trying to pee. See if any of you have a similar list.
Cubicles: The sound I am going to make, knowing that as I go someone is going to here the splashing sound it makes and know how long I’m taking and weather I can actually go or not .
Urinals: Being rushed and knowing I will be stood there for a while. I don’t want anyone else to be there, preferably not even in the same room as me. The second someone is in the same room, my bladder immediately tights until they are gone. Almost like a switch. I actually feel the urine travel down to come out, then someone walks in or I get that feeling and the urine retreats. Then as the room empties the urine starts again, but I still can’t go. Not that I use urinals much and this situation goes for private toilets too, like even my own toilet in my own house. It’s the proximity effect.
Public port loo’s: Single or open style, it would be 50/50 weather I could go or not. I honestly feel like I have some kind of curse over me. Is it possible for the karma that surrounds you to actually have this kind of hold over you? They do say that the mind is a powerful tool. Maybe everyone in this world feels I should pay for my sins?
I have discovered one way I can pee in public, away from everyone at a reasonable distance, and in the total dark. If it is completely dark, and I am a reasonable distance away, then I am fine.
It is almost like I need everyone to be completely distracted before I can go.
Re: In the dark
Posted by Claire on 29/10/2009, 9:50 pm, in reply to "In the dark"
I read your message with a great interest. Being pressured for time seems to be the recurring thing - although I've never had a problem with time contrainst re exams or work deadlines!
However, your bit about the sin gave me a bit of a chuckle. Incredibly meditating on a holy picture - current fave St Gerado seems to distract me and allow me to go 75% of the time if others are congregated outside the toilet cubicle. However, seriously, look at my message regarding indentifying a trigger.
Good luck for the future.
Claire
Re: In the dark
Posted by Walt on 30/10/2009, 12:25 am, in reply to "Re: In the dark"
If I was having erectile dysfunction for example, it may be due to stress or being tired etc. But with sex I know the triggers that get me going, and I can become aroused physically as well as mentally. When peeing, there is no trigger that can get you going, physically I can think of no trigger to get me going, and no matter how hard I think of something that helped me pee the last time, it never works twice.
It isn’t like you do a few stretches and warm up, or have oral with someone whom turns you on. Peeing is simply done 'cold' if you get my meaning? It's like running a marathon without any warm up or stretches. You are asking for trouble when that happens. Unless you are totally desensitized to other people and completely happy with being on show and ‘performing’ and are either unaware or just don’t care about the thought process of peeing, well then most people will have no problem
If I can learn the thought process, I would probably be ok. But to be honest, I can stand there thinking sweet daisy for 24 hours; I could cover every thought in the world and still be dyeing to pee.
Re: In the dark
Posted by Andrew on 30/10/2009, 12:39 pm, in reply to "Re: In the dark"
Hi Walt
One trigger is association: i.e. visualisde a waterfall, or water comes down a drainpipe. While visualising, say to yourlsef in your mind, slowly and calmly something like pee, pee, pee.
Andrew
Re: In the dark
Posted by Mark L on 31/10/2009, 2:12 am, in reply to "Re: In the dark"
Hi Walk,
Your list seems pretty much the same as me and most other sufferes iv spoken to, if thats of any encouragement.
I never really got on well with a thought process, I suceeded by de-sensing and 'getting used to' peeing with others around.