Posted by Mike on 23/3/2009, 12:17 am, in reply to "Re: first time at workshop as a student"

Hey guys, Sorry it's been a while since I've posted anything... But I'd like to describe how it's been since the workshop. I have made some progression, although nothing major and nothing all that consistent (but often progression is in fact inconsistent... in a way). If the urinals are empty or if there are many of them and I can stand far away from anyone else I will go for it and take my time. I've had a couple of nights now where I have done this and been able to go. Although if people come and go while I'm trying or come close to me that will cause me problems. In a way there a lot of situations where I feel like it's easier to try for a urinal, because often in a cubicle the sound really hits me a lot harder and puts me off, but in a busy place where lots of people are using urinals then a cubical is my only choice. Our main local nightclub has a horrid toilet with about a 6 man long urinal troth with a mirror opposite it so you can check yourself and your bits while you piss - who's bright idea was that? I have no idea. Anyway, I usually avoid this like the plague, but I went with a couple of my friends (one who knows I have the problem) on a random night when there weren't more than like 20 people there. I managed to pee at this urinal about 4 times I think, a couple of the times with my mate there and the others when no one else was there, but could have been about to walk in, so that was good practise. Although, we've done it so much now that it's actually easier for me to go with him than by my own worrying that someone might come in... I've also just had a new guy move into my house, so I completely feel like my safe toilet has just been turned upsidedown and that will probably take a week or so to adjust to. Sometimes, I have a strange way of thinking when I'm trying to go, I like to imagine I am a tree rooted to the ground not going anywhere - try it sometime, it seems to help haha

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