Posted by Matty on 10/3/2009, 11:29 am

Hello again Since my first post yesterday i been reading as many posts as i could and scanning the site for info.I just read mike's post about him going to the Philippines and how he got on aboard the plane and was sorry to here that after all the positives you had you then had some negatives specially whilst on a long flight like that. But reading about you taking Valium and drinking vodka to alter your state of mind made me remember a time in Newcastle.I had been roped into going by three of my friends to watch football and get drunk (obviously) the thought of this swam in my head all the time before that trip was to commence.I was also meant to be going to Blackpool for a night out but a football injury from the day just so happened to be to soar for me to attend a few more weeks of bliss before Newcastle which try as i might i couldn't get out of. So the day came to quickly s always and we set of and as if god hated me i found my self needing a pee about 20mins in of a 2.5 hour trip.About half way in (by this time i was bursting) we stopped at a small town called Kirby Stevens which i forgot to mention i been before whilst on my college trip i posted about(http://members.boardhost.com/paruresisUK/msg/1236604612.html) well in this town they have some toilets right in the middle of the small town and i had tried to use these before so knew what to expect but no luck as my friend just happened to need the loo as well.So on to Newcastle and as we arrived at my friends brothers house i found my self in this new loo no lock and i could every thing down stairs, i stood there for about 5 mins then heard my friends say wheres Matty "OH CRAP" i thought and stated to tear up at the thought of having to tell them of my curse BUT a miracle it would seem i started to pee HURRAY YIPPEE and WOOHOO but then remembered i still had the rest of the night. Now i not going to carry on about every pub i went in but the mourning after (with a big hangover) i realised i gone the whole night drinking beer and had used the loos and the way home i mulled over what i remembered and tried to comprehend what had happened, i mean sometimes i could struggle in my loo at home which is like most APs is their safe loo and the only thing i could think of was the beer making me not care but when back i tried to replicate this in pubs in my home town with no such luck.This was in 2006 over 2 years ago i know now i should have took that night in Newcastle as a bloody huge step forward but as it a i shut myself off how i wish i could go back but i know that's not the way the only way forward is well forward so that's the way im gunna go. Cheers i just love this website. Matty

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