Hi Matty, It's great to read your experiences - you are doing the right thing to get it off your chest. You may be amazed to hear that I actually envy you! Why? Because you are young, unlike me, and have already found this site and know that you are not alone in coping with this demon. You have your life before you and will be able to handle your paruresis and take it in your stride. For 80 years or more I thought I was the only one on the planet who had this "peculiarity" so you can guess what my life has been like. But a year ago I found this site and my life has been transformed. My attitude and performance are so much improved thanks to three things:- finding the site and corresponding with people on it, reading Stephen Soifer,s book (highly recommended), and going on the UKPT Workshops. You have started on the road already - keep on and you WILL succeed. Best of luck to you.
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