Posted by Geoff P on 23/1/2009, 11:55 am

Today I took the advice in the CBT approach and tanked up with a load of water so that I would have several opportunities to pee. I planned a walk that would take me to four different toilets. I also took a bottle of water with me to keep myself full. I managed to pee six times in the four loos in the space of about an hour by only allowing myself to go for a couple of seconds, then stopping. I only started this process of desensitising less than two weeks ago, previously to which I had never been able to use a urinal or go anywhere near someone else.( See my two other messages ) The two best times this morning both happened in the same toilet. It is a fairly busy one, near the shops, though at this time of year its not exactly buzzing. The first time I went in, there was a man standing at one end of the trough. For the first time with someone else there, I didn't go into a cubicle, but took up my position at the othr end. I couldn't go whilst he was there but managed to a few seconds after he left. The second time, I entered to find the place empty. I stood at the same place as before and started to go. I'd just stopped myself, saving some for later, when I changed my mind and started to empty out. At this point another guy came in and started to pee. This time I couldn't stop and continued to flow. This has been another huge step for me and I'd just like to encourage you all to keep going with this. This thing doesn't have to ruin your life. You can beat it. You can win and not let this define you as any less of a man than you really are. Geoff.

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