Posted by Anonymous on 13/8/2008, 9:50 pm

I have had paruresis for quite a while, probably every since I left primary school, I don't know how it started. Anyway I have been able to handle it for quite a while in college and maintain good freindships and my work. But suddenly in the final year of college, it affected me very badly. I became anti social and introverted, I think because I thought I was the only one with this problem. But it has been really difficult to maintain friendships and I haven't been able to be myself. I don't know what it is, but its almost like voices in my head were telling me, I'm abnormal, pathetic and unworthy of a social life. I think because at the time I believed nobody had this same problem and I was all alone. It's really hard to explain, but I will be saying to myself "It doesn't matter if you need to piss, you can still talk to your friends" And this would be reccur over and over in my head every time I wanted to say something, so everthing I said wouldn't come out right And most of the time, I would freeze in the middle of saying something. Anyway I'm just wondering if anyone else has had similar mental afflictions and what would be the best way to overcome them. I've got a bit better now that I know I'm not alone. But it still affects me quite a lot.

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