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Targeted Individuals

Posted by Rod on 18/10/2009, 4:58 pm

Hi

I'm Rod.

I've known about this web site for a long time but never posted before.

The first time I remember not being able to go was when I was in hospital in 1977 having had my adenoids out. I was seven years old at the time. From then on I remember at school not being able to go to the loo in front of anybody. I lived close to school so could come home at lunch time and go.

To cut a long story short I've had this condition all my life. It ruined social life, no girl friends never married not children.

I concentrated on my career as a computer programmer. I became quite successful and in 2005 was earning around £76000 a year. My way of dealing with work was to rent rooms in houses near where I worked and could then go out at lunchtime for a wee. This meant limiting my fluid intake and just going to the loo once a day (not very healthy).

Any way in 2005 I began to get targeted. Sounds scary and it was. My computer was hacked and I could not longer continue to operate it. I knew it wasn't a virus in the normal way because things started happening on my home computers in 2004 and i felt some fairly powerful people/organisations were out to get me.

Anyway I walked out of my contract not telling anyone what was going on. I gave it a few months then got another job. Same thing happened (computer got hacked) and I realised working with a computer again was going to be difficult for me. Since then things have been a nightmare. People coming into my parents home where I now live and moving things round in my room when we are all out. I havn't worked since 2006 after a short spell stacking shelves in a supermarket.

The only good news is that I can now miraculously go to the loo in public. Yesterday I went to see my sister. I stopped of at the services. It was very busy but I used the urinals no problem with someone on each side of me.

The strange thing in 2005 when I came home after the computer hacking I was unable to go in the privacy of my own house (never had that before). It was as if someone was controlling my ability to urinate.

Now that I can magically go in public afer all these years I am getting very suspicious of this whole AP thing.

I have a sense that I am being monitored and have a thing called voice 2 skull going on. See http://www.voicetoskull.com. This is not the best web site about voice to skull, it's a bit crazy but do some googling into the subject. Also look up targeted individual.

It sounds crazy to say that someone can control your ability to urinate using some form of electromagnetic radiation, but I am very confused about the whole situation now given that I can now go no problem at all, without any practise at desensing etc.

Maybe we are part of some sick experiment to see how people cope with this awful condition that totally wrecks your life.

I am willing to provide more info or attend the workshops if anyone is interested in hearing more.

Regards

Rod

Re: Targeted Individuals

Posted by Andrew on 19/10/2009, 4:09 pm, in reply to "Targeted Individuals"

Hi Rod

You have had a rough time haven't you. Bad enough having to cope with AP without having other things going on as well.

You say that after the hacking you could not go in your own home. I can understand that: in the office you felt safe until the hacking started. As a result nowhere felt safe.

Spontaneous release from AP is not unknown. It can happen with a change of circumstances, where pressure is removed, or where confidence increases. All I am saying is that there can be more than one explanation for events.

Anyway, if you send me an email (address at top of page) I can put you in touch with someone who may be able to help you.

cheers

Andrew

Re: Targeted Individuals

Posted by Rod on 20/10/2009, 12:59 pm, in reply to "Re: Targeted Individuals"

Thanks Andrew. I'll email you shortly.

rgds

Rod

Re: Targeted Individuals

Posted by Joe on 19/10/2009, 10:54 pm, in reply to "Targeted Individuals"

I would suspect it was someone from your work noticing you leaving everyday for lunch, and maybe following you. After watching you for several days, or longer, they reported you to the authorities as someone of suspicion, in which, they began looking for the reason you were suspiciously leaving work "everyday" to go home. At home, you have a computer. Maybe they thought you were a teerist taking info from work home to your computer? With having that suspicion in mind, they hacked your computers both at work and at home, to make sure you were not part of a cell. I doubt, very seriously, voice to skull has anything to do with it. Although, maybe once they realized you were not part of any teerist cell, they realized why you were going home and found you to be a good candidate for voice to skull experimentation...screwing with your head, so to say?

Re: Targeted Individuals

Posted by Simon on 22/10/2009, 7:32 am, in reply to "Targeted Individuals"

So u are able to go now? Do you need to wear a hat made of tin foil so they cant control your thoughts?
Jokes aside, I have had a similar experience in the past- but i put it down to excessive recreational drug use. in your case i think you were obviously under a lot of stress and walking away from your job released a lot of that stress.
If you can take control of your own thoughts you can control them. I found it was hard to believe that my own mind had such an imagination and could play games with my self, but once i accepted that i found it very easy to silence my mind and in time replace these negative thoughts with positive ones.
Maybe I am wrong, maybe it is voice to skull, but the end result is you want to be able to control your own thoughts. Part of the workshop i attended was about controlling the 'boo monster'- the negative voice in your head. For me it was maybe the most crucial part, aside from meeting others like myself and realising I was not quite as strange as I had been telling myself!
Good luck to you. May the sunshine free your mind from dark clouds and bring a lasting smile to your face.

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