Posted by James on 28/11/2014, 2:10 pm

I found the UKPT about 6 or 7 years ago; but I haven't done anything but ponder the invites the workshops. Today I've finally signed up and already I'm looking forward to making some progress on this persistent, annoying, habit/phobia/anxiety that has bothered me for about 25 years (I'm 40). I certainly recall being 14 or early 15 and being fine, but having a this problem by 16. Almost certainly it was due to changing schools at 16 but I do recall the usual teenage anxieties being on mind a lot (all of which are obvious and rather silly now to a 40 year old family man). I'm not sure why now really. But it does feel like it is time I sorted this out. Life is good, career, family, health are all pretty much where I want to be, but this phobia (which is how I see it) now seems like a hindrance and how I've coped in the past, are just avoidance strategies rather than managing the problem. So I'm open-minded and determined to get this done. I still haven't told my wife and I'm not sure I will. I'm not sure she'll understand or tolerate me having "hid" this for so long, but I'm tempted to give it a go after Christmas. I have read down the forum (my first post in 2006 or 2007 is long gone!) and I can recognize many of the issues others have. Fortunately I am usually able to go using cubicles - it is really just urinals that I haven't used for 25 years. Finally I also see there are occasional London group meets. I'd to be included if I may, just to share a beer and help where I can. /James

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