Posted by Matt on 13/8/2011, 12:56 am, in reply to "I think this thing officially has ruined my life."

I have this exact same problem. I can't remember when it started or what triggered it, but it has definitely completely ruined my life. Internally, I am a very outgoing person, but this problem has forced me to live like a recluse. My friends, whats left of them, don't understand when I don't want to go out drinking, or go to sporting events, or go on road trips, etc. I have never had a serious girlfriend, and I sometimes get paranoid that people think I am gay. I am just known as a sort of friendly goofy oddball that doesn't like to do anything social. The truth is that I really do want to do all of these things, but having to hold my pee for hours and hours and hours and hours on end has just frustrated me to the point of not even trying anymore. I am extremely depressed and frankly I hold in a lot of rage due to this problem. I wish I could find some way to train myself to urinate in the presence of others but it is a very distant goal. Anytime I do find myself in a situation where I attempt to go in a public setting, my heart starts beating very hard (not fast, just hard thumps like some sort of panic attack), my penis shrinks up like a deflated water balloon, and not a drop. I am afraid this problem will eventually cause me greater mental harm than what has already happened.

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