Posted by Ian on 3/2/2011, 5:28 am

Hello all, this has been very hard for me to admit, as no other soul knows except some website that I had been talking to last year because I thought they would help but I realize all they want is money. I think I've pinpointed the disease that gradually came about maybe about 4-5 years ago and now rages through my life. I am a geology major, and it sucks because I can't join this really cool geology club that everyone wants me to join because they make frequent trips to awesome places. I have had a severe fear of judgement when in the bathroom, as not only do I have a severe form of paruresis, but social anxiety disorder in general. I am looking for any help at all, I am usually a very "go get em" type of guy, but its very depressing and dream shattering when a disease rumages through your subconscious, something that is barely under my control anymore. The only form of public urination I use is sitting down in the cubicle, I can do it anytime, but standing up is like hell to me. My heart begins to pound so hard it shakes my entire body and it gets to the point where i can't even feel my bladder need to go anymore. It is the worst especially when people walk into the bathroom being loud. HELP!!

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