Posted by Rory on 27/1/2011, 9:19 am, in reply to "Feedback on London Workshop - January 2011"

My biggest feeling after the workshop was why oh why didn't I do this years ago. I actually made an international flight to get to the workshop and still felt it was totally worthwhile. It was one of the most incredible feelings of my life to meet a bunch of people, none of whom I would ever guess had AP, in the same room and then spend time with them. The feeling of shared experience with the nightmare that is AP is incredibly liberating. The other part is that everybody is really supportive. It's like no matter what kind of person you are in your normal everyday business life. You feel you want to help the people on the course as you know how bad the problem is. There was a feeling of genuine camaraderie. It must be like a bunch of war veterans meeting up and all knowing what the others have been through. I made incredible progress and pissed into a public urinal for the first time in 20 years. I could never have believed that would be possible. I now always go to the urinal first for a try and if I misfire I leave and come back later to either try again or if desperate have a noisy water splashing pee in the cubicle. I have carried on desensing. And while I have a lot of misfires. Its all desense in the bank. Amazingly many other men are taking an age to pee or are misfiring all around me. Makes you realise once you get back out on the front line that we are not actually alone. It's just how we perceive our misfires. For those who know that I was anxious on the course about having a pee at my new girlfriends flat. I managed it last night after standing at her toilet with the door open after 5 minutes. But rather than get really AP'd I just laughed it off and carried on trying. I thought even normal people can take some time. So don't think AP. Just think normal male with extremely bad hesitation Good luck to all the guys on the course, thanks to Andrew, Dan and Colin. And all the best to all of you.

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