Posted by Geoff P on 15/7/2009, 8:12 am

Hi Guys, Having had my confidence levels pushed through the roof and beyond on the recent London Beginners Workshop, I've been experiencing exactly what Andrew said would happen back in the real world. Its only been about three weeks since London and I've found that my confidence has simply evaporated. It certainly hasn't gone down to where it was pre-workshop but its not where it was post-workshop either. I think there are two factors that brought this about. Firstly the amount of practice gaind on the workshop just cannot be continued out on your own. Secondly, you just feel so safe and have so much fun being with Andrew and the other guys and, of course, that ends when you say goodbye. So I decided to have a real biltz on my confidence levels and get in a whole day's desensing. Over the course of four and a half hours, I visited 9 different toilets in and around Exeter. I made a total of 16 visits and only had one missfire and that was on a low urge (about 4-5). True, most of the time I was either alone or with little company but that actually made it easier to get in lots of positive experiences. I even had success in the very AP unfriendly stainless steel trough in the loos by Exeter library I have to say that although my confidence is not back to where it was, its much much greater than at the start of the day So, if any of you guys who were on the same workshop as me or, indeed, on any other workshop and are feeling a bit discouraged at the moment, don't beat yoursef up about it!! Andrew said it wouldn't be easy. Try and get out there and get desensing. And post to encourage the rest of us. Cheers for now guys, Geoff

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