U.K. PARURESIS TRUST: Size issues???

i'm a 20 year old, and have suffered from paruresis since i was about 10. so a decade now oh joy.

i've considered the old escape route of a quick suicide attempt to make it all go away, but let's be honest what would that achieve. I'd lose my life and that would be a bloody waste.

I just wanted to write this as i started suffering from this during puberty. The time where you worry about everything, like wether or not your penis is developing or developed enough.

at that age you don't really know whether or not you have a big or small penis, at that time i believed i had a small penis, and was embarrassed and scared to get it out in public.

AS a result i did not want to pee in public and paranoid in stalls to.

I have now found out that mine is not small, and indeed over average,
but i can;t pee in public in any forms, and it hold me back massively

i'm wondering if anyone else has had this start from a fear of there size???

i'm starting college in september, and need to reach out for some form of help. So let's see how it goes.

Hope all is going ok for you other sufferers and THANKS if you read my post.

Thanks
James