Posted by Geoff P on 25/4/2009, 12:16 pm

Hi Guys, Had a free morning, so decided to use it to get in some practice. I am conscious that I've been putting too high an expectation on myself lately, wanting desperately to be able to break through the ceiling in my progress towards 'normality'. So, I tanked up and headed for town. I decided to take the preassure off and go for the quieter facilities, just to build on my confidence of being able to use empty urinals. After a couple of successes and one missfire (too much company), it was time to be heading back home. After a lot of liquid intake and only letting small amounts go each time, I knew I'd need to go again before leaving town. There's a fairly quiet toilet on the way, so I planned to go in there and let it all go. As I entered, there was an older guy with his back to the urinals and a couple of yards from them. He was busy texting. I went up to the urinals and took my stand. I felt very relaxed about him being there as he was busy on his 'phone and obviously not about to come in my direction. Very quickly, I started to go and really enjoyed the experience of being able to see another person at the same time. This is the first time I've been able to start with another person around. I thought it might be helpful for my own future reference to write down my learning points: 1. Relax. Don't preassurise yourself. 2. Consolidate what you can do before trying to push forwards. 3. Don't see a step back as a failure. 4. Enjoy Can't wait for the London Begginer's Workshop, but trying not to put a massively high expectation on it. Aiming to relax and enjoy! Cheers for now, Geoff.

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