Posted by JamesC on 3/9/2008, 9:02 pm, in reply to "Re: I don't know how to feel..."

Reading all of this, I'm feeling really positive... like, so what if life's a *little* bit crappy at some points right now... This... " WE will teach you how your body works, how to think, how to fluid load, how to do desensitisation, etc etc. YOU will start from a safe setup that YOU choose. Only when YOU are comfortable with that would YOU change the setup a little bit to introduce a little bit of challenge...and so on, one small step at a time. " ...made me happy. I need to realise that I've made the decision to change, and I will... it just might take time. I have to also realise my victories... I went in a busy pub toilet in Soho (and this was a Friday after work drinks busy... ####ing rammed, and I was standing outside) ...the bathroom was empty, and it was a completely close cubical... but I did it. I also managed in another pub in London on the same night (luckily the same situation)... so I've got to tell myself that things are going to get better.

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