newby story

Posted by gary on 6/11/2008, 10:22 am

Hi every one, it feels great to be here Im 37, my problems started when i was 8, i hit puberty early and became a bit of a specticle in the toilets at my infants school, the kids would ask to see my 'grown up' willy, i didnt mind the attension but i started peeing in the cubicle and it wasnt till i was 10 that i became aware that i couldnt go at the urinals, peeing at school was a drag but managable. i remember once when i was 13 on a 200m trip with my parents, i asked my dad if he could stop some at the next services so i could pee, but he stopped in a layby, i got out and had that sinking feeling me all know so well, as i scanned the area i noticed a possible piss place on the other side of the road so over i went, it was over grown with thorns and nettles but i was so desparate i decided to jump over them, what i didnt know was there was a 5 foot drop into the dense undergrowth, i was covered in brambles and stinging nettles and still peeing was the only thing on my mind! i actually peed whilst getting stung and cut, and only after did i start to shout for help lol. my dad was furious, it was then i told him about my shy bladder,he said pull yourself together and that was it! when i was 15 i went to the docter, he informed me there was no cure and it was after that meeting things got really crazy for me, there were periods when i was 16-17 that i was house bound but even then i knew one day i was going to beat it. at times i would stop taking fliuds so i could stay some where like a football match or night club and there was many times that i just had to leave. on a number of occasions i think ive come pretty close to damaging my bladder/kidneys, as ive got older its become managable, but ive come to a stage in my life where i would benefit greatly if i could transend this nonsense. so hello to you all, im finding talking on this forum already theraputic and im looking forwaerd to the beginners workshop in jan gary